They Look Ordinary...

They lace up just the same

But it's not the boots that matter

It's my solider in the boots

That means the world to me

I have been so bad the past few weeks with keeping up with the blog. I promise to be better! The problem lies with my computer mainly though. My laptop has been acting weird and shuts off by itself or restarts whenever it wants to, which is like every 15 minutes. We have a desktop, but I prefer to use my laptop to write blogs. All my pictures are on there and I can curl up somewhere and just let the writing juices flow. That's kinda hard to do with the big ol desk top!

James and I took a trip to Indiana this last weekend. I only wish I could have actually seen more of him! Sometimes sharing him with the army is a pain. Especially when they get him for a whole year. We have been together for almost two years now! Sometimes I think it has flown by, but then I realize that I have only actually had him for a year and I understand why it feels like that. We can only hope the next year (starting in August) will fly by too. I'm a little nervous about this deployment. Last time was so different. To be honest I really didn't think anything would come of this relationship, he will admit the same thing too. So many things were against it. I was a sophomore in college and he was leaving the country for a year. We hardly knew each other, but we made it! We know we can make it this time though, there are no worries there, but what am I supposed to do? I don't have a full time job yet and last time I had school, track and my part time job. I was so busy and the time just flew by it seemed. Staying busy is good, it keeps your mind off of it and I don't have that this time, at least not yet.

I don't know what to do with myself. I have applied for every job I have come by that I can possibly apply for. I applied for three more yesterday. It doesn't even matter what it is at this point, part time or full time, as long as I can have another job. I have decided that I want to keep my job at Hallmark on top of another job I can come by. It will be better money and is one way I can keep myself busy while James is gone. I love my Hallmark girls too. Mel has a boyfriend in Afghanistan and Beth might be sending her boy off to basic soon. The others are always supportive and asking about the military guys. They are a great support group. My goal for the next year is to work, save as much money as possible and paying my college bills! I would really love to knock that student loan out as soon. I hate having debt.

I'm sure the next few months until he leaves will go by at the speed of light. It is so unfair because I know the months following wont be as kind. So much will be missed. Christmas, Valentines, Easter and yet again another birthday. We will be together 4 years until he can actually be with me on my birthday, all because of the army. Something so small yet so big. People never think of things like that when they say we are in a pointless war, that they don't support the military, or take their liberties and freedoms for granted. The military and their families are the best thing that ever happened to this country and it's time Americans started showing a little support.

"And ever has it been that love knows not its own depth until the hour of separation."