A Rock and a Hard Place

Have you ever had a horrible week except for one bright spot, but you couldn't have it? I feel like that's where I am. I want a full time job more than I can express and this week I got a call, but ever since I heard the message something has told me "No." Because of that I haven't called them back and I have been begging for a sign, any sign. So when I think I get one I still hear this "No" in the back of my head. I'm starting to wonder if maybe I'm just looking for what I want to see. I want to go on the interview and get the job, but then there's that "no" again and a sick feeling in my stomach. I know that it would be temporary, definitely not what I'm looking for, but something to get me by. "No." It's so frustrating! I've been looking for months and when I actually get the opportunity something is telling me not to do it. I've prayed about it, and all I get is "no." I can't imagine why God wouldn't want me to do this, but then there's another voice saying "I've got something better for you." Oh yea? Please by all means show me where to go or what to do, I need something! I'm miserable this way, with James gone and nothing to do. "Patience." That was a great answer. I'm running really low on that stuff. Who knows maybe there is some sort of lesson to all this. So as much as I want to pick up the phone and call that place and schedule an interview, I'm going to listen for a change. I'm hoping this isn't a huge mistake, but there is always that "no" when I think about it. I'm just hoping another door opens and soon...

On the fire skin: Pretty much the same as yesterday. Itchy, huting, and annoying. This can go ahead and pass. I'm really tired of it.